A paradox...

Maybe someday I'll get my whole life story written out, but this recent writing of mine will have to do for now.

my life is a paradox...

I was....
conceived.
born.

unwanted.
wanted.

ignored.
listened to.

the least of.
the best of.

given up.
adopted.

abandoned.
enfolded.

rejected.
accepted.

loved only when convenient.
loved for who I am.

bitter.
happy.

distraught.
content.

unsettled.
settled.

angry.
calm.

hypocritical.
sincere.

but God took hold of my heart and changed me.
I forgave... wholeheartedly and without abandon.

I now...
love.
rejoice.
accept.
hope.
dream.

and continue to forgive and strive for courage and beautiful grace.

for this, my heart is grateful...